Our Story

I linked up with Kelly’s Korner on Friday so for those of you that don’t know me, I thought now would be a good time to share our story.  If you are new to the blog and especially if you found me through Kelly’s Korner, thank you stopping by and following me and my journey through life!

Brandon and I met in 2006 while we were both taking a Dale Carnegie class.  I would like to say that it was love at first sight, but it wasn’t quite like that.  We didn’t really even talk to each other until the last couple of classes.  After talking several times after class, emailing and talking on the phone, we went out on our first date.  Our first date consisted of meeting almost all of Brandon’s family, which was slightly overwhelming for the quiet only child. 

We love a lot of the same things, including the South Carolina Gamecocks.  Almost a year into our relationship, my aunt and uncle had season passes to the football games on the 50 yard line.  We bought two of the tickets and I think Brandon was in heaven.  I’m pretty sure this was the only reason Brandon proposed to me, but little did he know that the season football tickets were about to end.  At least he still decided to proceed with the wedding! J

In April of 2008, we got married and I moved up to North Carolina where he was living at the time.  We started our lives as a married couple and had all of our hopes and dreams to look forward to and share together.  Other than a few bumps in the road job-wise, everything was going great.  We were finally able to buy a house, travel and do most of the things we had talked about doing.

About a year after we got married, we decided we wanted to start a family.  We thought that this process would be easy and in no time we would be looking forward to having a family of 3.  Little did we know that almost 3 years later, we would still be waiting for our family of 3.  After both undergoing a lot of tests, we finally consulted with an infertility specialist.  I remember walking out of the first consultation thinking “how did we get here?  Wasn’t this supposed to be easy?  What should we do now?  Are we going to be able to afford this?”  There are so many questions and not a lot of answers when you struggle with infertility.  After 2 rounds of Invitro-Fertilization, I still feel lost.  Where do we go from here?  Do I really want to do this again?  Can I handle the emotional and physical stress this puts on me and my husband again?  What if it doesn’t work next time? 

If you have struggled with infertility then you know how emotionally draining it is.  It makes you feel like there is something wrong with you – like what can I do differently or what can I change to change the outcome.  It is also very lonely.  I know that I have my husband, but I think women’s feelings about being a mother are so much different than a man’s feelings.  I have really struggled with so many people in my life being pregnant right now.  I want to be happy for them, but it is really hard.  It has nothing to do with the individual, but the circumstance.  I try so hard to be happy for others, but some days it is just unbearable and I can’t fake my sadness.  I know over time things will get easier! 

I am thankful to have such a wonderful husband to go through this with.  My husband is the most loving and supportive husband in the world.  I couldn’t imagine having to go through this with anyone else by my side and always be there to hold my hand.   He is my rock and is always there for me.  I also find comfort in reading other people’s stories, so if you have a blog about infertility and your life’s struggles, thank you for sharing.  Just knowing that other people out there have similar situations makes me feel less alone.  If you are just starting on this journey and have questions or concerns about IVF, please feel free to leave a comment or send me an email.  Thank you again for taking the time to check out my blog!