Wednesday, July 24, 2013

When one door closes...

Friday was my last day at work.  It was definitely a bittersweet day.  I have mixed feelings about it – on one hand, how can I not be excited to stay home with this face all day?!



On the other hand, work has been a huge part of my life for the last 5 years.  I don’t adapt to change well…in fact I hate change.  BUT I have learned that sometimes life gives you good changes – like the birth of our baby girl.  That has been the largest change in my life, but I wouldn’t trade it for the world. 
As I got in my car on Friday, tears rolled down my eyes as I was closing a chapter in my life that I didn’t think would close for a long time.  I was walking away from my daily routine that I have known for the last five years.  I was walking away from great customers who I had gotten to work with and to know very well over the last several years.  But most importantly, I was walking away from my co-worker and best friend.  We have worked together since May 2008 and this was the last day we would have together (at least in this capacity).  That was the hardest part for me.
She has been through so many things with me – reminiscing over fun vacations, venting over stressful days, finding out that I would have to go through IVF, going through IVF and failing, the loss of my fur baby, the extreme sadness and anger of a miscarriage, finding out that I was pregnant again and most importantly, the birth of my daughter.  So many memories and experiences I have had, she has been there to help me get through it.  Not only is she my best friend but she is my sister.  She is the hardest part about walking away from my job. 
As hard and scary as it is to start a new chapter, I am looking forward to the future.  I get to stay home and be a full time mom to my daughter.  What greater gift is that?  I get to meet my former co-worker for lunch in a stress-free environment.  I get to take my daughter on walks in the park during the day.  I get to focus on working out and becoming healthier not only for me but for my baby girl and husband.  So many opportunities lie ahead of me.  I know everything happens for a reason, and I am looking forward to my new future and all of the good things to come!

1 comment:

  1. Its scary but I promise you it will be the best decision you ever made! There is nothing better than getting to wake up to, spend the day with and ultimately raise your baby yourself:) Good luck and I'm in your same boat if you ever need someone to talk to:)

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